Back in the game

So i went out with a new guy tonight.
It hasn't happened in a while, because of many things, mostly cause of other new guys that had recently appeared in my life..that seem to have found someone else over than me.
So i guess i don't have to worrie not to go out with some other new guy...u know, i was doubtful because when someone has feelings for you and you say you can't really give them back to him, well, it's a little oakward to get in the dating game again. Cause u know he still has feelings for you.
But he's moving on, so why shouldn't i do the same? So i met with this guy...he's studing architecture, and it's quite an intellectual type...tho he's kinda funny and smart, and yeah, deadly cute..
well, not deadly, but cute enough to me. He has such a wonderful pair of eyes, so blue, and they were wide open tonight while they were looking at me.
I, of course, was funny as always. Maybe more funny that the average, cause i keep repeating myself not to be bitchy but to try to make him comfortable. And i guess i get some results,cause he kissed me 3 times to say goodbye...on the cheek, of course. And then other 2 times. I guess he wanted to kiss me...he incidentally touched me while we were walking to his home, and made some talks about carpe diem and stuff...well, we'll have a reprise :D I guess..

And, on the other hand, another guy i like -the one that is dead to me!- come back into my life and i crushed for him again...since he says he already has a boyfriend, and he's sorry he didn't tell me before...he's always the same, because people don't change...people never change. Screw him, i'm gonna have sex with him anyway. A silly boyfriend won't stop me. MHHWHAAHAHA.



I do am back in the game.

Happy endings & frustration

So, a couple of series i watched greedly have come to an end…natural end to theirs stories. I won’t say anything for those of you who hasn’t seen it yet, but I’m talking about Will&Grace and Charmed.

Both with happy endings, both made me cry.

But is there really an happy ending to our stories?

People claim to have found the real love. People claim to have found the right place to be.

I’ve found nothing of those. I have little satisfaction, just temporary. Good moments, good things, that happen and then pass away.

Maybe it’s just me. Me, that I’m much too complicated, much too mental for those kind of stuff. I guess I should follow the flow and live easy.

But wouldn’t I regret that?

One way - against you

Sometimes, it seems to you that your life keeps coming over and over, repeating itself, like an endless deja-vu. Like u're stuck in a moment in time, in a circle, and every experience keeps repeating over and over. Up and down, happy and sad, exalted and then shattered and devastated -all over, like a circle.
This is one of those times.
One of those time when you really ask yourself how the friendship is valuable. Sadly, it's not only what you think that matters. When it comes to something that's releated not only to yourself but to those one that are all around you, it becomes complicated. Much more complicated. And, usually, one-wayly.

Happens that you trust a person, and after a long time of cold, stony heart you open up with it(the person, whose sexuality we wanna keep covered -tho it's clear his sexuality to those who see him ...). Well, at least you're trying to open u up. It's a process, isn't it? Some just have it naturally, some like me has to work on it hardly, cause they've became selfish and just don't wanna trust others. So you find someone who works with you on this stuff, and he does it so naturally and he doesn't want no reward, he's just doing it for you. And you're happy, and you think this time it's really the end of the circle, that u've took the right exit from the highway of selfishness.
But you're wrong, stupid idiot, u're wrong. It just keeps repeating over and over, again and again, and u're fucked up again, with your ass on the road, alone like u've always been.

The point is just this: how can you just go away, sending me just a lousy message on my cell, saying that u're goin away? to me, to me that u always said that i'm like family? to me, that i really trusted u?
I've always been the kind of guy that is firmly convinced in the power of taking things over, of fighting together and not by ourselves... and i feel, over than abandoned and alone and betrayed, like the road under a dog's shit, whit a spitted gum right under it, in a hell-hot summer day...over than all this, i feel unuseful and as if i failed something i had to do, something like been there for you when u needed it...tho i do remember having offered it to you, and i though i did my part well...
I just don't believe that running away is the solution. Cause the same problem will happen, once again, over and over like in a cirlce. And you do run away, u always run. Somewhere, but u always run around. And it's consuming you. Isn't it?
See that there's no love here. No love like a boyfriend loves. It's some different kind of love, better of worse, i donno, i just know that it's here, and I think it's something nice, and that's worth your caring, and your presence.


Can i just say it's not only me that's feeling the same way? I guess u've gone a little too far.

And i do know that maybe i'll be the only one to undestand this, but no one read this blog, and if they do they probably won't undestand english. What kind of people do i know? -_-

So this is Christm...oh no, it's september

So, it's september again. Everyone's back at his boring life, no more vacations, no more hanging out late with friends on tuesday night, no more cosmopolitans on the rooftop -but that was only in manhattan,of course :)
I've finished watching the WHOOOOLE Sex and the City...i mean, all the six seasons, all the fake endings, all the bloopers, everything. I'm sad. I donno what to watch, i'm looking forward the new sitcom season start. But, i've discover that the actor that plays will's boyfriend in the sixth and seventh season of will&grace was the spunky sperm guy that samantha swallows in sex and the city. isn't that funny? it's funny just cause his sperm is spunky, actually.
How does ur sperm taste, guys? :)

Alex

If i can make it there, i'll make it anywhere...

Ok, so i was in New York City. It was amazing, i loved it, i wanna go back there, i wanna leave this crappy place i live in. Nothing new, actually.
The City was incredible. I was not so used to all that smog, traffic, people, parties...it was party every night. 7/7. Amazing. Terrific. And oh so alchoolic! :D
There were Cosmopolitans of course, and Sex on the bitch, and apple martinis and strawberry margaritas and oh i can't remember. i drank so much :D
I totally have to go back there.
Wait for me -a little longer!

Sandals & flip-flops

Ok, i'm kinda worried about this tendence: i went in a gay club last night and there was a lot of guys wearing those devil shoes... i just can't stand them. I don't think it's the appropriate outfit to go in a club, it's not a beach party...there are a lot of bithces, but it's not on the beach. I would never wear flipflop and bermudas in a club...i've actually trampled on someone's feet, but i don't think that excusing with them for dancing on their shoes is the best way to hook up.
I don't know how hetero guys dress, but i think we should be the example to follow, not the one to laugh at...it's strange, some time ago we were the trend-maker...and if wearing sandals is the tendence, well, i don't wanna have part in it ...
I was wearing my colorful rainbow gayish shirt :) THAT is cool.

Ale

The Blind One

So, have you ever been to a blind date? From what i can see on MTV, u know, on Boiling Point and all the other shows actually, i can tell that blind date is something actual common. And i'm use to go blind too, and the most of the times i have a quite fine evening. That's because i think that someone's mind is FAR more important than his figure. I'd *love* to hang out with Brad Pitt, of course, but if all that i can do during the evening is admire his body and dream about his six-pack,well, i'd rather go out with Denny De Vito. And i'm not into chubs :D
What are your experiences, folks?
Ale

Straight guys and soap

What's the matter with straight guys and soap. What's wrong with that. I mean, why can't they undestand that they STINK!?! Good lord.

What do they think, that they'll become the metro-queer type that they're so scared to look like? I think that girls would be the first to avoid them, if they smell like ...gosh, don't make me say that.

It's summer, of course u sweat, everybody does, but everybody's using soap, too! Gosh.

Soaping yours,
Ale

Welcome!

Benvenuti :)

I would like to mantain this space in english, so everyone should be able to read it. Anyway, i've tried to do this in the past and, u see, i'm building another space so the last one hasn't gone very far...
I think i should learn the html code to make this blog interesting...let me see.
Talk to you later :)